It’s been just over 2 weeks since the SAF and Physique Canada shows, and since i’ve taken this time to relax and breathe a little i’m feeling ready to tell you all about my first bikini competition.
First things first, I had a truly amazing time–who knew it would be so fun!? I met some incredible ladies back stage, and cannot wait to compete with them again. Yes, you heard me right, I will definitely be competing again. Having time off for my mental and physical health has been GREATLY appreciated, but i’m ready to get back into the game and see what this body of mine can do.
On the day of my show I was so nervous. My palms were sweaty, my legs shook, and my heart was racing. As I stood on stage behind the curtain able to see the girls ahead of me go out and do their thing I had a brief moment of panic when I thought…
What if i’m the ONLY girl in the history of competing who slips, falls, and ends up kicking a shoe into the crowd…
luckily I didn’t have time to dwell on that thought for long because it was now MY turn–#83. The moment my number and name were called out and I made that first step out onto the stage something inside of me came to life.
GIRL YOU GOT THIS! STRUT YOUR STUFF….POP YOUR BOOTY! SMILE! BE DRAMATIC. SMILE MORE. POP MORE. GO! GO! GO!
…so strut, pop, smile, and flirt I did. Thanks inner diva.
The photo above is the top 8 from the SAF fitness model division. I found out later that I placed 5th and know that if I work a little harder and come in better conditioned for my next show I have a shot at the top 3. I won’t lie and pretend i’m satisfied with 5th place–sure i’m proud of myself for getting there, but I know I can do better and I have my eye on first place.
Physique Canada show in the evening was a little harder for me as I was feeling the affects of not drinking water all day. I was actually really tired and almost didn’t do the show, but after talking to a few of the girls i’d met backstage decided to stick it out. I’m so glad that I stayed. I placed 3rd in my division of Tier 3 (novice) and am able to compete in Tier 2 next time around. The next show is in October and I am toying with the idea of competing to see if I can make top 3 again and move up to compete as a Tier 1 (elite) athlete next summer. No decisions have been made yet, but I am thinking about it.
So that brings us to the dreaded post show blues. As much as I prepared myself mentally for what would happen post show, I have to admit I wasn’t quite ready for the cravings, the insane water weight gain, and the ‘bingey’ thoughts that dragged on for a week. My tan was splotchy, my body looked super soft, and on top of everything I accidentally ate gluten and have been suffering ever since BUT I pushed through the tough part and I feel ready to do it again.
Keep an eye out for a more detailed update on how i’ve felt during the course of the past 2 weeks, and how i’ve handled it. It hasn’t always been easy, i’ve cheated a little more than I should have, went off plan a few times and have felt guilty but i’ve learned some important lessons and now that I know what to expect and how I react to certain things, I will be better prepared for next time. It’s been a learning experience and I have had to remind myself more than once that I will not walk around looking the way I looked on stage. Funny thing is, the moment I came to terms with that everything else fell into place and I became excited to do another show.
Speaking of which, I have decided to do another show on September 19th. It is just under 12 weeks away and since I plan to bring a leaner better conditioned package to stage there will be some adjustments but overall i’m very excited to start up again.
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